I have made many choices which I regret throughout my life; however, there is one that seems to have made a huge impact on my life, in the worst way I could imagine.
It all began on the night of my 18th birthday…
I was enjoying a quiet drink with my friends at the local towns pub. It was a quiet Sunday night and there was probably only about 15 people max in the pub. I had 3 vodka and lemonades. This wasn’t much for me. I’ve been out with my friends many times before and drank much more than that. Plus, although it was my 18th, I didn’t want to get really drunk. I’d had an amazing day with all of my family so wanted to end the day having a quiet drink with my friends and actually remember it all!
I got up and brought my 4th drink of the night… same as before – vodka and lemonade.
Then…. I made the mistake which I will forever regret. I can’t believe I was so stupid.
My friends asked if I wanted to play a game of pool. The pool table was right next to the table which I was sat at, so I put my drink down and grabbed a cue. After just 1 shot, I took a sip of my drink.
That was it… there was no going back. I’d been spiked.
The next thing I remember is hanging over my bath at home, having no control over any of my body, puking my guts up and all my family around me panicking. I don’t even remember what they were saying. I just remember the panicked voices and my sister on the phone to the ambulance. I also have a vague memory of everyone singing ‘Incy wincy spider’ to me to try and keep me conscious until the ambulance arrived to rush me to hospital.
The next day, I literally thought I was dying.
At about 4am I got sent home with my parents. 10am came around and I felt queasy but stable. I sat downstairs with my family but as time went on I felt stupidly ill and literally any part of my body that I moved, whether it was just my little finger or my leg, it made me really violently sick and burn up. An hour passed and I grew far too weak so was rushed back to hospital.
This was no hangover.
I got out the car at the hospital and immediately fell on the floor. I couldn’t stand or move… I was too weak to control my body… almost as if it was paralysed in a way. I actually thought I was going to die.. it was the worst feeling ever. I got put on a drip and had lots of medication pumped into me and was plugged into a heart monitor and several hours later I was able to leave.
At the time, I honestly didn’t think I was ever going make it home from hospital and live my life. I thought I had ruined my families lives forever.
I spent the next two weeks in bed, unable to eat or drink anything other than ice cold water. I grew so weak and skinny. It was devastating.
Now, 2 years on, it has still affected my life. Since that happened I have developed terrible social anxiety. I feel sick and nervous on various occasions, and it is all because of that traumatic night.
I know people say never live with regrets etc. But all that goes through my mind when I think of this day is ‘what if…’ and ‘If only…’.
I’d been spiked. It was the worst experience I have ever had and I wish people would realise how dangerous it is. I could have lost my life, and many people have in the past, due to other people’s stupidity.
I don’t know what people will think when they read this, but I really hope that it will make you think twice about leaving your drink alone, or even taking drinks from strangers. Trust me, it isn’t worth it. I almost died due to somebody else’s stupidity.
I really wish police and adverts would raise more awareness of the dangers of being spiked, because trust me; you do not want to be in the condition I was in.
I’m just thankful I had my family around me. I literally cannot thank them enough. If it wasn’t for them and all of their support, I would have given up trying to breathe and stay conscious that night. I wouldn’t be here to write this now.