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The Truth Behind My Abusive Relationship

When my friends used to tell me to leave my relationship whilst I still can, I never listened. They would tell me I was in an abusive relationship and it was dangerous, but how could it be when he had never hit me? How could it be when he had never threatened to punch me or tried to strangle me?

I understand now. It has been just under three years since we broke up, and I can finally admit I was in a abusive relationship. Everybody else could see it; apart from me. Because Love is blind.

When we first got together, things were great. I fell for him straight away and it was the first time I could honestly say that I only have eyes for him. Things were going smoothly, yet whenever we came to any kind of obstacle that affected our relationship, it was always my fault.  Continue reading

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‘Fangirl’ by Rainbow Rowell: Book Review

Cath and Wren are identical twins and have always done absolutely everything together. However, when they leave home to start university, that all changes. Wren wants to have more freedom away from Cath and wants to go off and have fun getting drunk, going to parties and meeting boys. Cath on the other hand, isn’t sure she is ready for that huge change yet so keeps herself buried in her fanfiction world that she writes, whilst feeling Wren slip away from her more and more.

Cath spends her days trying to avoid other people on the campus (including the gorgeous Levi who always seems to be hanging out in her room with her flatmate), writing fan fiction which she is extremely passionate about and worrying about her Dad who is all alone now that Wren and Cath have flown the nest. Now that Wren has distanced herself, how is Cath going to cope with life? Can Cath leave her fan fiction world behind and open up to new experiences and new people?FANGIRL_CoverDec2012-725x1075

I had heard so many good things about this book over the last month or so, that I was desperate to give it a go. When I first read what it was about, I was quite excited. I thought it sounded like such a fantastic book and ever so different to those that I have read before.

The relationship between Cath and Wren was very up and down. I felt very sorry for Cath when Wren decided that she didn’t want to share a room with her anymore and basically found a new partner in crime – her new roommate. It felt as though Wren was being spiteful as she knew that Cath was very shy and found it difficult to make friends, yet she seemed to shut Cath out more and more. I found this whole relationship so interesting to read. I have a sister myself, and although we have never shared a room or been completely inseparable, I would find it very difficult if she shut me out and got on with her life, totally forgetting about me. Therefore, I can understand that this situation was 10x worse for Cath so I really sympathised with her. Continue reading

“Gapping it..” – Guest Post by Mia

Today, I have a really insightful guest post to share with you written by Mia. Here, Mia is telling us all about her decision to take a gap year, and advice on how to spend your gap year if you cannot afford to go travelling. I hope you enjoy this post, and remember to go and visit Mia’s lovely blog here!


I am currently on a hiatus from life. I don’t know what to do, I don’t know where to go, I don’t know where I want to end up, and I’m not really quite sure who I want to be yet either. So, because of my habitual indecisiveness, I decided to take a Gap Year, and let me tell you, it’s not all saving orphaned elephants in the rainforest.

Had I known that I would spend two years of my life feeling the most stressed that I have ever been, I would have told myself resolutely, that I would take a Gap Year at the end of sixth form. But no. I was not aware of the blood, sweat and tears (SO many tears) that would have to go into gaining three A-levels. I worked bloody hard for my grades, but I paid for it too. I got unbelievably stressed, which therefore made me ill, which therefore made me miss lessons, which therefore made me stressed again. I was not a pleasant person to be around. My friends still like to remind me that I favoured grunting to actual speech when I was in a spiral of stress.
Not that sixth form wasn’t worth it. I made some amazing friends and memories, I learned a lot, and I discovered things. We laughed a lot, because if you didn’t laugh, you’d probably cry. A-levels are hard, man, I don’t care what anyone says.GapCollage

I learned how to be myself, and how to do my own thing. Sixth form gave me the confidence to branch out and do things that I wouldn’t normally do. I went to Auschwitz in Poland as part of a history trip, I started my blog, I got slightly less shy (but only slightly, that still remains an issue) and I even started going to parties. It was good. I even loved my subjects, but they were difficult and required a lot of brain power; brain power that started to dwindle by the end of the two years at sixth form. Not only this, but I had the pressure of University applications to think about too. I didn’t even consider a Gap Year as an option- I would go to Uni, just like everyone else.
But I still wasn’t sure. There was always something niggling at me; when my friends started getting excited about Uni, I was just anxious. When they started buying pots and pans and duvet covers, I just ignored the situation and wished it would go away.
I got offered a place at Brighton University to study Media & English Literature, so I had done what I set out to do. That was Stage One complete. Now I just had to get there. But the closer September got, the more I started to think. Do I really want to go? Am I ready for something like this, really? And the answer was no. Truly, I am not.
And it’s okay to say that.

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A New Chapter in Life

I can’t quite get over the fact that in 3 weeks time, I would have completely finished education. My three years of university will be over and I will be taking a big leap into the big wide world.

The thing that worries me the most is that I have nothing lined up for after the summer. Some people have jobs to go to, but I have nothing other than my Saturday job. I have thought about starting to apply for full time jobs on numerous occasions, but in the end I decided that that would be an added stress. I need to get myself through the last hurdle of uni before I put more pressure on myself of interviews and job hunting.
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“Don’t let the past steal your future”

letSometimes, the thought of letting go seems impossible. You’ve held on to something for so long, so what’s the harm in holding on that little bit longer?

Whether it is a person you’re holding on to, a memory, or an object, it is never an easy move to make.

Have you ever held on to somebody, knowing that you are better off letting them go? So many relationships end up this way, especially first loves. I’ve been there, and I am guilty of holding on when I shouldn’t. Even when you know that it is for the best, you still cannot bring yourself to do it, no matter how hard you try.

How about an object? Something you feel close to. Something you have grown up with, that it is part of you. Perhaps the object is broken, or you have no use to it anymore – Why do we feel so guilty and alone when we try and part with it?

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“What if…?” – Will I Ever Know?

Do you ever sit and wonder what life would be like if certain things in your life went a different way?

I do. Probably a bit more frequently than I should. It’s easy to say “if I did this, then things would be different”, but how do you know that? There is no way to find out whether you would be in a better or worst position if you did/did not do something, or meet someone.

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“My hopes and dreams for the future…” – Fantastic Guest Post by Sophie-Jane

Today I have a wonderful feature post by Sophie-Jane to share with you. I absolutely love her blog and I urge you to check it out straight away! Here Sophie is talking about her future, her hopes and her dreams! Im sure you will enjoy reading it as much as I have , and please head over to her blog after 🙂

My hopes and dreams for the future…

The future. You’re told to live in the present, not the present or the future either. The present. But as a society are we able to achieve that? My heart beats this second, in the present but my head trails to the future.

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