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The Truth Behind My Abusive Relationship

When my friends used to tell me to leave my relationship whilst I still can, I never listened. They would tell me I was in an abusive relationship and it was dangerous, but how could it be when he had never hit me? How could it be when he had never threatened to punch me or tried to strangle me?

I understand now. It has been just under three years since we broke up, and I can finally admit I was in a abusive relationship. Everybody else could see it; apart from me. Because Love is blind.

When we first got together, things were great. I fell for him straight away and it was the first time I could honestly say that I only have eyes for him. Things were going smoothly, yet whenever we came to any kind of obstacle that affected our relationship, it was always my fault.  Continue reading

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Why Failing is Acceptable

The thought of failing in something is enough to scare anybody.

Failure isn’t just about not doing well in exams or not passing your driving test; Failing has a variety of different meanings.

I couldn’t help but feel like I had failed today – failed myself, failed my boss and failed my clients – all because I had to call in sick after being up and down all night with food poisoning. I felt really guilty like I was letting everybody (including myself) down, but why? Everybody gets poorly every now and then, right? I physically and mentally couldn’t go to wdownloadork today, so why do I feel so guilty?

Whilst scrolling down my news feed this evening, I couldn’t help but notice The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt today was called ‘Must Not Fail‘ which again, got me thinking. Continue reading

‘Fangirl’ by Rainbow Rowell: Book Review

Cath and Wren are identical twins and have always done absolutely everything together. However, when they leave home to start university, that all changes. Wren wants to have more freedom away from Cath and wants to go off and have fun getting drunk, going to parties and meeting boys. Cath on the other hand, isn’t sure she is ready for that huge change yet so keeps herself buried in her fanfiction world that she writes, whilst feeling Wren slip away from her more and more.

Cath spends her days trying to avoid other people on the campus (including the gorgeous Levi who always seems to be hanging out in her room with her flatmate), writing fan fiction which she is extremely passionate about and worrying about her Dad who is all alone now that Wren and Cath have flown the nest. Now that Wren has distanced herself, how is Cath going to cope with life? Can Cath leave her fan fiction world behind and open up to new experiences and new people?FANGIRL_CoverDec2012-725x1075

I had heard so many good things about this book over the last month or so, that I was desperate to give it a go. When I first read what it was about, I was quite excited. I thought it sounded like such a fantastic book and ever so different to those that I have read before.

The relationship between Cath and Wren was very up and down. I felt very sorry for Cath when Wren decided that she didn’t want to share a room with her anymore and basically found a new partner in crime – her new roommate. It felt as though Wren was being spiteful as she knew that Cath was very shy and found it difficult to make friends, yet she seemed to shut Cath out more and more. I found this whole relationship so interesting to read. I have a sister myself, and although we have never shared a room or been completely inseparable, I would find it very difficult if she shut me out and got on with her life, totally forgetting about me. Therefore, I can understand that this situation was 10x worse for Cath so I really sympathised with her. Continue reading

Should I give up, or should I just keep chasing pavements?

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I think everyone can relate to this photo. At some point in everyone’s life they get the toughest decision whether they should keep trying or just walk away. I’ve been in this situation many times, and it never gets any easier.

You try to weigh up the pros and cons in your head over and over but it never helps. You get back to that same moment where you have to decide perhaps not what you want, but what’s best. So many things go through your head that contradict each other, like “what If I give up when things were just about to get better/perfect?”, or “what if I hold on and I get pushed away and hurt even more?” Continue reading