Tag Archive | stress

The Truth Behind My Abusive Relationship

When my friends used to tell me to leave my relationship whilst I still can, I never listened. They would tell me I was in an abusive relationship and it was dangerous, but how could it be when he had never hit me? How could it be when he had never threatened to punch me or tried to strangle me?

I understand now. It has been just under three years since we broke up, and I can finally admit I was in a abusive relationship. Everybody else could see it; apart from me. Because Love is blind.

When we first got together, things were great. I fell for him straight away and it was the first time I could honestly say that I only have eyes for him. Things were going smoothly, yet whenever we came to any kind of obstacle that affected our relationship, it was always my fault.  Continue reading

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A New Chapter in Life

I can’t quite get over the fact that in 3 weeks time, I would have completely finished education. My three years of university will be over and I will be taking a big leap into the big wide world.

The thing that worries me the most is that I have nothing lined up for after the summer. Some people have jobs to go to, but I have nothing other than my Saturday job. I have thought about starting to apply for full time jobs on numerous occasions, but in the end I decided that that would be an added stress. I need to get myself through the last hurdle of uni before I put more pressure on myself of interviews and job hunting.
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Our Anxiety Experience

Hi everyone. Today I am doing a collaboration post with the lovely Melodie from http://melodiebenson.wordpress.com/ about anxiety, stress and our personal experiences of them. You can also find Melodie on twitter @Melodie_Benson


 

Jenny

Last year, it felt as though my world was falling apart. I spent my days crying in bed, and the thought of getting up pained me. The biggest problem though, was that I didn’t know what I was crying about. I started to cry more each day, however with all of my uni deadlines at the time, I assumed it was just the stress of them!

My deadlines came and went, and university was finished for the Summer. So why was I still crying? Why was I getting worse? I had no idea.

I moved back home, wondering whether I was homesick, but no, that wasn’t the case. I carried on getting worse to the point where I would be happily sat down, and then suddenly burst into tears for no reason at all. Going out was the worst. The thought of going anywhere scared the hell out of me, and I would avoid eating until I was home.

I didn’t know what caused this, but it was an uncontrollable feeling. When I was still in uni, I couldn’t even pop to Tesco’s (which was literally a 2 minute walk from my flat) without being sick first. If I arranged to meet a friend, I would be violently sick before I left, and would have to try and control it whilst I was out so that they wouldn’t notice – which often proved impossible.Collab post

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I can see light at the end of the tunnel…

Today is the 24th March, which means that I only have about a month until my dissertation is due in…. Scary!

I’m feeling quite confident about it at the moment, although I know as the deadline draws closer that I will be feeling more stressed. I’m currently in the middle of writing up an analysis of my results, which is going pretty well at the moment. It only seems like yesterday that I started university, yet alone only having a couple of months until I graduate! Continue reading