When my friends used to tell me to leave my relationship whilst I still can, I never listened. They would tell me I was in an abusive relationship and it was dangerous, but how could it be when he had never hit me? How could it be when he had never threatened to punch me or tried to strangle me?
I understand now. It has been just under three years since we broke up, and I can finally admit I was in a abusive relationship. Everybody else could see it; apart from me. Because Love isblind.
When we first got together, things were great. I fell for him straight away and it was the first time I could honestly say that I only have eyes for him. Things were going smoothly, yet whenever we came to any kind of obstacle that affected our relationship, it was always my fault. Continue reading →
Something has happened to me lately that has changed things for me in the best way I can imagine. I don’t know whether I am crazy from being on cloud 9, or whether this is actually fate but it has made me want to share my journey with you right now. What I am going through, you will here about.
I guess its a current blog. But I am going to try and make it as interesting as I possibly can. I apologise for a lack of posts again – work has been absolutely manic over the Christmas period – but I would love it if you all followed my journey with me!!
I always have and unfortunately I didn’t exactly help the situation…
When I was younger I had quiet dark bushy eyebrows. I never had a mono brow, just lots of hair each side that looked pretty scruffy. Obviously it didn’t bother me when I was little, but when I became a teenager it became an issue for me.
I had started comprehensive school and I (the totally un-cool girl) had to compete against the cool girls; Known as “The Plastics”. (Unsure of what I mean? Go and watch Mean Girls! It’s a must-watch movie).
So.. one night I closed my bedroom door and decided to get the tweezers out (which I obviously borrowed from my older sister). It hurt, but it felt great. I plucked and plucked away until I had thin eyebrows just like all the other girls. I loved it! The thing is, I didn’t even realise back then that ‘shape’ mattered. I thought as long as they were thin then I was safe.
I bumped into a stranger the other day. She stopped and asked me how I was; what I was doing with my life.
It felt awkward. I told her I was working, doing a job I love and I am back home living with my parents after three years away. I asked her the same questions back – “How are you? What are you doing in life?”
She pretty much said the same thing back – “I’m busy working. I have got myself a car to take me there and back each day from my parents house”.
We exchanged smiles for a few moments and stood hovering on our feet awkwardly unsure of what to say next.
After a couple of minutes of awkwardly looking around for something else to say, I wished her well and went on my way. Continue reading →
I feel like I am in a fish bowl.. Not literally squashed in a tiny little bowl, but sat here with everybody stopping to look at me.. I’m sure you can understand what I mean when I come around to explaining it…
I’m sat in work at the moment. It’s a pretty quiet day today so I thought I would bring in my notebook and get writing whilst it’s quiet. Our shop is on the corner of a little arcade and there is a constant flow of people walking past day in day out having a nose. Don’t get me wrong, the location is 100% perfect for business. We get so many customers just from walking past and seeing us as well as word of mouth. Continue reading →
The thought of failing in something is enough to scare anybody.
Failure isn’t just about not doing well in exams or not passing your driving test; Failing has a variety of different meanings.
I couldn’t help but feel like I had failed today – failed myself, failed my boss and failed my clients – all because I had to call in sick after being up and down all night with food poisoning. I felt really guilty like I was letting everybody (including myself) down, but why? Everybody gets poorly every now and then, right? I physically and mentally couldn’t go to work today, so why do I feel so guilty?
So I have just spent the last few hours catching up on all of the blogs I’m following, leaving comments here and there and generally taking in all of the posts I have missed over the last few months.
I can honestly say that I actually feel really good after reading them. There is something so satisfying about reading other blog posts and taking an interest that I didn’t even realise I had missed. So I am definitely going to take time out each day to just sit and have a read.
I forgot how much I missed this kind of interaction. I feel as though I actually know some of you on a personal level just through blogging even though I have never actually met you. Continue reading →